Current location:	dining table
Current mood:	kinda sabog ;p
Current music:	madonna

For tradition's sake. I super miss my most beloved blog :)
I've been writing and writing work-related reports and e-mails. For my pastime, Friendster surveys mostly consumed me. Eeeek. Hehe.

I almost forgot I have personal writing I can attend to -- one that is faaaaaarrrrr more important and meaningful. :)

And I miss my most trusted friends (and cousins) whom I gave free subscription to my LJ posts. haha.

Below is something I wrote two months ago. It's not so happy-happy-joy-joy but I love you alls anyway. (See mood)

"...Learning how to balance commercial success while staying true to the art of photography is a puzzle I have not yet solved." - Photographer Marcqui Akins

The "art-versus-commerce" dilemma - I have not yet solved that too. It puzzled me twice in the past. First was during college - whether to take Literature out of my own will and undying interest versus the more "practical" and "business-inclined" course that my parents wanted me to pursue: Economics. They had this idea that by taking the track, I'll get richer and that it would put me in a better condition than what they prepared for us. The second time was at work, as a *take note*: Marketing Assistant AND Contributing Writer for a magazine, where I was then pulled by two opposing forces -- to write stories in my own creative way as I saw the events unfold in one end (that is, free from any promotional or commercial considerations), and write sponsored articles by the clients who pay me and whom I had to have smooth relations with on the other (which I had to do carefully, otherwise the publishing company I worked for would not thrive).

By God, if there's really anyone who would understand Akins' problem the most, I think the closest person would be me. I have not yet found the solution for it either. It may not be the most difficult problem in the world, but for someone who has the whole heart for arts but somehow can't freely be one with it permanently due to external factors, it is one dilemma which requires struggling, even to the point of tears.

It is just like one's passion being wagered against society's dictates (for me, at least).